Cherokee Maiden

Date:	3/11/2008 4:30 PM
Type:	Long
Course:	TKD Loop
Distance:	5.21 miles
Duration:	1:00:20
Pace:	11:06 / mile
Shoe:	Asics
Weight:
Weather:	Overcast
Notes:	Wow. I thought I ran a better pace.
Statistics:	Calories: 728 VO2 Max: 27.1

I was really surprised that I ran so slowly.  Wow.  I thought I was flying. 

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So, I’m about 3 miles in, when Cherokee Maiden, by Merle Haggard comes on my playlist.  I start bawling, sobbing, snot running down my face and singing out loud–all during the run.  Seriously, I was glad that there weren’t a LOT of drivers going by, but I’m sure the ones who saw me thought I was losing it.  I was.

Back in 1978, I met a boy.  Married him in 1994, and ended up in court with him this morning, getting near the end of our marriage.  It didn’t end well.  Mostly I was saddened at how this journey went.  We have great kids.  Always will.

Back story:  In 1978, we would sit outside the AGR (Alpha Gamma Rho) fraternity at Fresno State, and sing sappy country songs.  Clay and Rick (who has since passed away) were loud, partying, and fun.  I remember them singing Cherokee Maiden.  A lot.  

So, when this came on today, I ached.  I hurt.  I sobbed.  Loudly.

Running is my best salve right now, though.  I’m grateful.